Saturday, April 4, 2026

1 & 1/2day voyage

The Frost of the Windy City

Living in West Des Moines, I’ve always felt like we sit somewhere near the center of the American map. Not exactly north, not exactly south, but close enough to the Canadian side of the continent that winter really means something here. When people talk about cold weather, I sometimes smile. Up here, anything above freezing almost feels pleasant.

Among my friends, taking a walk at 1°C isn’t considered a challenge. It’s just… Tuesday evening.

This is what I jokingly call the “Actual U.S.” — the part where the air has teeth and the people quietly learn to live with it.

My friends from Texas see things very differently.

For them, cold weather is something closer to punishment. So when we all met in Chicago a couple of months ago, I knew the city was going to test their limits. Chicago doesn’t just get cold; it specializes in cold. The kind that slides under your jacket and stays there.

That evening the skyline of Chicago was almost invisible. Thick fog rolled between the buildings like slow-moving smoke. Streetlights glowed softly through the mist, and the wind coming off the lake carried a damp chill that made even thick gloves feel useless.

We were layered up like explorers, yet somehow the cold still managed to sneak in.

The Prelude

The evening before our downtown adventure felt almost like planning a small expedition.

Six adults, two teenagers, and three younger kids gathered around a table. The younger ones sat with their usual cans of Coca-Cola, completely unaware of the serious planning happening around them.

For the adults, those cans served a slightly different purpose.

Let’s just say they were mixers.

Soon the conversation became louder, the laughter easier, and the plans increasingly ambitious. Someone suggested we start before sunrise. Someone else insisted we needed to visit at least five landmarks. At one point we even debated which train car would be “strategically ideal.”

Eventually I grabbed a small piece of paper and began writing everything down like a serious planner.

Wake-up time.
Train station.
Landmarks.
Backup plans.

It looked impressively organized.

And the next morning, of course, I forgot that paper completely on the table.

The Journey

Morning arrived with that sharp Midwest cold that wakes you up instantly.

We layered up in thermals, jackets, gloves, scarves — basically everything we owned — and piled into my trusted Nissan Rogue.

The drive to the Aurora train station was short but quiet. The roads were still half asleep. When we arrived, the parking lot looked strangely empty, almost like a scene from an early morning movie.

A wide stretch of asphalt with only a few cars scattered around.

I parked as close to the platform as possible. Not for convenience, but for survival. In that wind, every extra step outside felt like a bad decision.

The station itself was simple. No gates. No crowds. Just a straight path from the parking lot to the platform.

In the distance we saw the glowing screen of a ticket kiosk.

My friend and I walked quickly toward it, hands buried deep in our pockets, shoulders hunched against the cold wind. A few quick taps on the screen and our tickets were printed.

Then we waited.

Ten quiet minutes on the platform.

The only real sound was the wind… and occasionally the faint rhythm of teeth chattering from someone in our group.

Then slowly, through the fog, a massive shadow appeared.

The train.

It rolled toward us slowly, its lights cutting through the mist. At first I thought it was simply slowing down for the station. But once we were inside, I realized something funny.

That was its normal speed.

For the next hour we watched the frozen Midwest landscape drift past the windows — empty fields, silent suburbs, and distant factories — all slowly leading us toward the gray, magnificent heart of Chicago.

Into the City

The train station in downtown Chicago felt enormous. Not elegant exactly, but powerful.

High ceilings. Steel beams. Echoing footsteps.

It reminded me of a giant cave built out of stone and metal. People moved quickly in every direction, rushing past each other like determined ants.

Shoes clicked sharply against the floor. Somewhere nearby a coffee machine hissed loudly.

The air smelled like a mix of old coffee, cold air, and that metallic scent that always seems to follow trains. Large digital boards hung from the ceiling, constantly flipping through the names of distant towns while a calm voice over the loudspeaker announced arrivals and departures.

Millennium Park

Not far from the station sits one of the most vibrant places in the city: Millennium Park.

After the heavy architecture of the station, stepping into the park felt like entering a completely different atmosphere. Open space. Fresh air. Trees. Art. People moved slowly here. Tourists took photos. Street musicians played music near the famous pavilion. Families wandered through the pathways.

And of course, there it was the famous sculpture locals call The Bean.

Officially it’s known as Cloud Gate.

Its mirrored surface reflected the entire skyline of Chicago in a distorted, beautiful curve. Aneesh immediately ran closer to look at our reflections bending across the steel surface.

For a moment, the cold wind didn’t matter.

The Sky Above the City

Not far from the park rises one of Chicago’s most recognizable landmarks: Willis TowerStanding below it, you almost feel like the building disappears into the sky. We eventually made our way inside to reach Skydeck Chicago. The elevator ride alone felt impressive climbing more than 100 floors in less than a minute.

When the doors opened at the top, the entire city stretched beneath us. And then there was The LedgeGlass balconies extending outside the building itself. Standing on transparent glass while looking straight down at the streets hundreds of meters below is a strange experience. Part thrill. Part mild panic.

TEXAS

Through the Storm: A Relentless Drive South

A few days later came another journey entirely. This time, from Iowa down to Texas.

Just the three of us — Suma, Aneesh, and me — loading our bags into the Nissan Rogue and setting out before sunrise.

At first the drive felt peaceful. Iowa’s farmland stretched endlessly around us. Tall red barns, massive grain silos, and tractors parked beside muddy paths.

Aneesh kept pointing at the huge farming equipment scattered across the fields.

But as we crossed into Missouri the sky slowly began to change.

Gray clouds gathered. Then darker. Then almost purple. By the time we approached Kansas City the storm had fully arrived. 

Rain hit the windshield like handfuls of gravel. Thunder cracked across the sky. Wind pushed against the car from the side.

Still, I kept driving.

The storm followed us into OklahomaWe stopped three times along the way.Each time at lonely gas stations glowing under neon lights in the middle of the storm.

Gas.
Pizza slices.
And my personal survival fuel — Red Bull.

Two cans in total.

At one stop the rain was so loud on the roof of the car that we could barely hear each other speaking. At another, the store smelled strongly of coffee and fried food.

Truck drivers came and went quietly.

Outside, the wind never stopped.

But eventually the rain softened as we crossed into Texas. The clouds began to break. The highway signs slowly started pointing toward Dallas.

And finally, late that night, we drove into the quiet neighborhoods of Frisco.

A Warm Welcome

When we reached Chepstow Crescent Court, something wonderful happened.

Before we even stepped out of the car, the front door opened.

Our friend’s daughter Janvika came running out toward us with a huge smile on her face. She was tall for her age and full of excitement.

Behind her stood our friends, waiting outside to welcome us.

After hours of rain, thunder, and highway miles, that moment felt incredibly warm.

Their home was stunning — a spacious American-style house with soft yellow lights glowing warmly through the windows, inviting us in after our long drive. The entrance hallway led seamlessly into a large living room, where a massive television sat on a carved wooden stand and a cozy L-shaped couch beckoned us to sink into its cushions. A soft rug beneath a low coffee table added warmth, while lamps in the corners bathed the room in a gentle glow.

The open-layout kitchen flowed naturally from the living area. A sleek stove stood on one side, a stainless-steel dishwasher on the other, and a large dark-brown dining table dominated the center, perfect for family meals and gatherings. Just to the right of the entrance, polished wooden stairs led up to a loft with two cozy children’s bedrooms, offering a calm and playful space above.

Behind the living area was a huge garage, neatly organized with shelves of tools, bicycles, and other household equipment. Every corner of the house felt thoughtfully arranged, combining comfort, practicality, and warmth — a true haven after our long stormy journey.

Standing there, tired but happy, I realized something.

The long drive through storms had finally ended.

But another part of the journey had just begun.

And of course… after a week here, we’ll have to make the long drive back to Iowa again.

That story, however, is for another day.

Saturday, November 15, 2025

Another Me!?

 

Another ME!?              

Wondering why the eroteme and a screamer together? That isn't a grammatical mistake or an over sight. The combination is what I am trying to figure out in sequence. If you got it, you got it.

I grew up in a nearly tourist place called Visakhapatnam in the state of Andhra Pradesh. Geographically, it decorates the Southern part of the subcontinent. It houses beautiful (but can be clean) beaches & lengthy and curvy sea shores. I called it nearly because, I never felt it as a tourist place having been acclaimed to the rhythm of the place since childhood. Beach is a daily escape place for me with friends. Irrespective of question, beaches have their answers for me. Best part is, I never asked questions but the waves had their answers. It was always upon me how to use the answers to solve my questions. That was the phase of my life, I have learnt to pause, think, draw solutions and execute.  

Not right from schooling but from the phase of being an infant, I pulled only one thing towards my mind - being social is being happy. Being social is the pathway to success. I grew up with that strong note of being accepted if one is social. To add to that feeling friends entered my life. My friends circle is another world. I grew up with them. Right from the lowest grade in my school which is called Lower Kindergarten to my graduation which is 16 years,  I was with them. They surpassed me in that inclination of being social. Overtime, these associations inscribed themselves upon my consciousness and conditioned me to believe that being social is a conduit to stay happy and taste success.

Now, its different. I am surprised to experience the difference in thoughts - all thanks to the place that cradles me. This very geography has to be blamed for this. 

I thought I will be unmoved by anything outside me. I thought that is what called character. But, it doesn't seem so any more. Why? Because, I am liking the unusual me. Another me. I did not realize in the first few meetings with my happy moments. I had to wait for the meetings to increase both in number and, more importantly, in frequency. Rather, they had to wait for me to understand the nuisance. I am understanding that the clever come backs and the nods we receive for being quick is only half of the distance covered. To cover the remaining, there is another pivotal aspect that every one needs to experience - solitude. This is not just what I felt. This is what I experienced. 

These are my sparks of bliss that I distilled and let them down from my mind to tell you what I experienced.

Look at the ducks. Each duck is moving at its own pace and direction. The open water around them is an invitation to breath, slow down and enjoy your own  company. 

#freedom (of direction and magnitude)

       


Another moment for me that made me think about standing alone.
 
A lone fixture patiently existing and asking for nothing. Though everything around the object looks faded, it is there and waiting for the right time to glow. Now imagine a thick dark night and this is a backyard of a one and only house in farms. It is mid-night and an old farmer gets off his bed and turns on the bulb. No matter the glowing intensity of the bulb, because of the darkness around it and it is there standing alone, the glow intensifies and it asks for nothing. 

#freedom (of own space & time)





No clamor for attention. A gentle rise and I met the stalks of wilderness. I am sharing these with the world I know. I am drawing inspiration form them. To them, they do not matter. They do not even know that I met them but I have taken life lessons from them.

Their tips glowing like gold. 

To me, it is standing alone but complete. 

#freedom (of being brave)






Someone is asking me to slow down, to breath and to stand still. My solitude is introducing me to my self whom I never met. Socializing, certainly, helped me grow outward but solitude is helping me grow inward. 

Another ME(!?)  :  First I wondered and now I am questioning myself. Why did I miss this in my past?  

Could another feeling be waiting to cross my path in the form of a punctuation mark? - a subtle pause, an exclamation, or a quiet full stop? 

YES OR NO? Either way, I will pen it down 

Happy Reading :) 

 - SRAN





Monday, September 8, 2025

Dreams Unlimited

Right now, I am sitting under the soft, yellowish glow of a lamp at a table in the Marriott Hotel somewhere in the northern part of America. This place is called Des Moines, the capital city of Iowa. I am not a software engineer who crossed oceans to chase dollars in the United States. Nor am I a student pursuing an MS at a university here. Before I speak of why I am here and with whom, I first need to understand myself. While I try to stay pragmatic, the feelings tied to my work, friends, and the time well spent back in India linger—not as a burden, but as emotions that quietly accompany me.

This first post is mostly about why I decided to start this blog. It may not have a story per se, but it feels like an arrow shot by an eight-year-old boy from a toy bow—driven only by the desire to shoot, without aim or direction. And yet, I am happy. I am happy to have the freedom to walk along a directionless path. I am enjoying it—no pressure of time, no pressure of expectations, no pressure to go against what I do not like.

This brief introduction may seem ordinary, even boring, but if you can read between the lines, you might sense its depth. Mind you—the waters here are deep, not shallow.

So, wishing myself all the best, I will conclude this post. Without further introductions, I am ready to begin penning down my experiences, thoughts, and desires.

See ya guys,

Sran!

1 & 1/2day voyage

The Frost of the Windy City Living in West Des Moines, I’ve always felt like we sit somewhere near the center of the American map. Not exac...